An intensely brave, gorgeously written story about a gay Muslim teen who has to choose between being true to himself or his faith—and his realization that maybe they aren’t as separate as he thought

RAMIN ABBAS HAS SPENT his whole life obeying his parents, his Imam, and of course, Allah, without question. But when he starts crushing on the handsome captain of the soccer team, so many things he’d always been so sure about are becoming questions:

1. Music is haram. Buuut what if you’re just listening to the Wicked soundtrack because you’re being forced to play on the soccer team? With Captain Handsome???

2. A boy crush is double haram, and Ramin’s parents will never accept it. Buuut can he really be the only Muslim on earth who feels this way?

3. Allah is merciful and makes no mistakes. Sooooooo then isn’t Ramin just the way Allah intended him to be?

And why does living your truth but losing everything—or living a lie and losing yourself—even have to be a choice?!

On Sale Date: 3rd March 2026 by Simon & Schuster Atheneum/Caitlyn Dlouhy Books

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